but in rj everything is so big, there're so many more people, and it's only divided into two batches. i fade/get sucked into the background so easily it's kinda scary. day after day i see people like me, people like me, me like people, me like people; conformity is such a norm (haha celebrate the pun).
then again i dont know if i wanna settle for what i've got right now. i have more of some, and they have more of others i guess. no point being all upset about it, that's that. but the world out there is big and big, and i cant help but feel stuck sometimes. then again sometimes it's nice to be stuck, and comfortable. oh gosh andrea what are you rambling about.
ah. i feel lost. in both senses of the word. dont know where i am, and that i've lost myself along the way somewhere.
i took a break;
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