i've had enough of people sending me this gay personality test so i just did it.

Orange

You're a bold, confident orange. A warm, powerful color that indicates a strong, welcoming personality, orange is the mark of people who are social and extroverted by nature. Vibrant, with an upbeat attitude, you have a bright, inviting demeanor. Energetic and fun-loving, you're a real friend-magnet. Your easy charm and unassuming manner make you the sort of person people want to meet and get to know better. Well-rounded and fun to be around, you enjoy helping others, so it's no surprise that orange also symbolizes attraction. Orange is an extraordinary color — for an extraordinary person.

RIGHT. im extraordinary =O hahahah no lorh.

wheeee i went tanning with jon and sam on tuesday!! becky and zhangs couldnt go sad sad. okay so me and jon reached late as usual then wenta eat breakfast at short john. only sam ate haha so i was being gay and dropping egg shells into his food. xD

left for beach (beach beach!) and skated for about an hour. i shall not elaborate much cos jon's blog has all the *ahem* details. -.- yayy i can skate!! =D but i fell twice-got a bloodied palm the second time bleh. that really tired me out and i was looking super flushed, so we went in search of a niceee unpopulated spot to tan.

found a place and started playing in the water (jon was the only one with his shirt off hahaha) cos there were 2 groups of banglas nearby and i dint want nobody staring at me. and sam the gay pok dint take off his shirt too. so after much coaxing and whining from jon we finally obliged to tan properly. xD top on or off dint make much difference actually.. and we were getting raped by the itchy stingy microscopic stuff in the water OUCH!

the sun was niceee. just sprawled on the soft sand and baked ourselves ooohhh. =P jon was super desperate for a tan la. (can tell from my tagboard) hahaha i should get paid for my sunblock application services. after listening to sam whine for a whole 2 hours bout how blinding the sun was-he had shades on la-we decided to leave for his house where we could get a comfortable, CLEAN tan. lol.

played in the kiddy pool. SO FUN! the slides and all were like, whoa. (okay fine im childish) then i totally owned the two of them-they were shivering and chattering in the water and talked like they were gonna die or smth. xDD HA we shall swim more often. then i get to gloat over not feeling cold at all.

after that was jon's last desperate attempt to tan on the beach chairs. yumm nice comfy sandless beach chairs. (yawn im le tired. and lazy.)

dinner at han's was decided by a coin toss. and they kept commenting on how flushed i was looking. *too* healthy-pink. woots i got my tan lalala.

HAHA im suanning michelle chan online now. hard. look at this.

andre-a] hardcore. says:
lol
andre-a] hardcore. says:
you're like announcing to the WHOLE WORLD can
andre-a] hardcore. says:
xDD
older, braver, stronger. I CRUSH JOSHUA ANG AND SHAWN LEE : D says:
why cannot! xD
older, braver, stronger. I CRUSH JOSHUA ANG AND SHAWN LEE : D says:
HAHA
andre-a] hardcore. says:
becaaauuuseee
andre-a] hardcore. says:
I CRUSH SHAWN LEE!
andre-a] hardcore. says:
hahahhaha
older, braver, stronger. I CRUSH JOSHUA ANG AND SHAWN LEE : D says:
you dont lke josh ang -,.-
older, braver, stronger. I CRUSH JOSHUA ANG AND SHAWN LEE : D says:
HAHA
andre-a] hardcore. says:
so you CANCEL the shawn lee RIGHT NOW
older, braver, stronger. I CRUSH JOSHUA ANG AND SHAWN LEE : D says:
NOOO
older, braver, stronger. I CRUSH JOSHUA ANG AND SHAWN LEE : D says:
haha
older, braver, stronger. I CRUSH JOSHUA ANG AND SHAWN LEE : D says:
i crush shawn lee TOO okay! (:
older, braver, stronger. I CRUSH JOSHUA ANG AND SHAWN LEE : D says:
anyway
older, braver, stronger. I CRUSH JOSHUA ANG AND SHAWN LEE : D says:
my friend crushes joshua ang and she told me to cancel the joshua ang
older, braver, stronger. I CRUSH JOSHUA ANG AND SHAWN LEE : D says:
NOW you tell me to cancel the shawn lee --"
older, braver, stronger. I CRUSH JOSHUA ANG AND SHAWN LEE : D says:
so what am i supposed to DO?!
older, braver, stronger. I CRUSH JOSHUA ANG AND SHAWN LEE : D says:
haha xD
andre-a] hardcore. says:
HAHAHA
andre-a] hardcore. says:
cancel both darling
andre-a] hardcore. says:
=D
andre-a] hardcore. says:
just cancel the shawn lee can liao
older, braver, stronger. I CRUSH JOSHUA ANG AND SHAWN LEE : D says:
OI
andre-a] hardcore. says:
HAHA who's your friend
andre-a] hardcore. says:
i shall suan her
older, braver, stronger. I CRUSH JOSHUA ANG AND SHAWN LEE : D says:
what cancel both!
andre-a] hardcore. says:
xD
older, braver, stronger. I CRUSH JOSHUA ANG AND SHAWN LEE : D says:
HAHA
older, braver, stronger. I CRUSH JOSHUA ANG AND SHAWN LEE : D says:
EHH
older, braver, stronger. I CRUSH JOSHUA ANG AND SHAWN LEE : D says:
so mean! i like joshua ang OKAY!
older, braver, stronger. I CRUSH JOSHUA ANG AND SHAWN LEE : D says:
haha
older, braver, stronger. I CRUSH JOSHUA ANG AND SHAWN LEE : D says:
you dont know wan lah
andre-a] hardcore. says:
lol joshua ang is SOOOO shuai
andre-a] hardcore. says:
you know how i know?
andre-a] hardcore. says:
cos i see him almost everyweek! HAHAHAH
andre-a] hardcore. says:
*suan suan*

this is getting me into fits. xDD

Children's Song

We live in our own world,
A world that is too small
For you to stoop and enter
Even on hands and knees,
The adult subterfuge.
And though you probe and pry
With analytic eye,
And eavesdrop all our talk
With an amused look,
You cannot find the centre
Where we dance, where we play.
Where life is still asleep
Under the closed flower,
Under the smooth shell
Of eggs in the cupped nest
That mock the faded blue
Of your remoter heaven.

R.S. Thomas

"By the time you realise that childhood is where paradise exists, you've far outgrown that stage."

i wish i was a 5 year old kid again, always being loved for being a little child and forgiven for everything i did wrong. i wish i dint have to face this yelling this shouting these attempts at emotional blackmail every day. but hoping and wishing never did turn back time.

is this what everyone goes through when they're 15? im hoping it is. then i wont feel so alone. teenagehood: having the responsibilities and expectations of an adult, but given the respect and power of a child. perhaps that's a little exaggerated but sometimes i really feel like im trapped, suffocating in the space between these two worlds. but bursting out of a cocoon prematurely never did anyone any good, so i wont.

who said anything bout teenagehood being easy? maybe adults could try remembering how they were like when they were teenagers? maybe parents could do with a little more understanding and not shoutshoutSHOUT and give me a charcoal face all the time? my mum's temper is short as my fingernails nowadays.

i say something, she seems fine with it, then 5 min later she comes into my room and has a fit. then now she leaves me home alone with no dinner. like @#$!%^&*?!

okay i let the steam out. back to geog homework. not that i know how to do it that is.

GRR my english teacher is damn niao can. just cos mine and ky's commonwealth essays dint have enough words (one thousand two for the minimum mind you -.-) she returned it to us and told us to extend it. im already being as long-winded as i can okay and it isnt as if im amanda chong or smth. suffering from written diarrhoea yes i am. fyi, my life doesnt centre around writing stupid expository essays on water. what lousy topics we have.

grrarh enough of my whining. shall blog on today! (my mum just gave my bro his angpao and the first thing he said was, "how much." xDD) eh i arrived late for service..after being disturbed like nothing by eugene tan on the bus while trying to read 1 Chronicles. genealogies YAWN. haah smsed zhangs to save me a seat but turned out she was only going for 2nd service. soo i sat at the ypm side of the chapel. they sang funny customized new year songs. lol. sermon by zhangs' dad (im sorry) was kinda long-winded and uh.. duh. haha.

it ended at 10 and me and jon went macs to grab a bite. marine parade was SOOO deserted luh. scary. then we had nothing to do so no choice go for second service lorh. mama. but the sermon was a lil better. at least i learnt smth. zhangs came and sat beside me (lol she was so super shocked to see me xD) and she felt super bad cos she dint bring my present NYAHA. so did jane.

everyone's getting sick. what a gay time for that. as for me i have a cough and flu, think i totally lost my sense of smell. -.-

im competing with zhangs and sam and becky in terms of angpao money. i think zhangs and sam are gonna own flat with their whole chao clan. hahaha. but i've got 202 bucks today not bad! =D olivia rapes the whole world with her 300. her grandad has *ahem* FOUR wives. so you can imagine the size of her clan. lol.

i hope there's 'more to come' =P tomorrow! back to commonwealth essay. *chants: another 100 words* i think joan teoh will puke blood when she reads it.

ah i have a 'shuai bf'-as commented by a certain taxi driver. *mumbles under my breath: my foot.* xDD

yesterday was lemme think.. the first time in a week when i actually had loads of fun? =)) well cny celebs was boring, but i was kept highly entertained by yiyun aka yuan aka yihoon. HAHAHA. she was acting super retardedly enthu and influenced us as well. (so extra luh 312 come over and sit with the 311ers. xD) she can go be a comedian next time. mama.

ooh and we spotted zeslene aka eslezen wearing something really black and punk and kay was saying her cap dint go with her shirt. haha but she looked nice though!

had dance auds for the sec 1s after that and had fun watching ppl tryout. our batch was lucky haha. then went out with zhengning ruyun and amelia tan. saw amelia for the FIRST TIME in my life yesterday and she was fun! hahaha.. she said she knew me since sec 1 as zhengning's good friend but ive never seen her before! lol. sec 1 we were forever prancing around doing stupid things together-even got sick splashing around school in the rain. sigh im sec1-sick.

ate at taka and saw LOTS of ppl. everywhere we went in orchard we'd be sure to spot ppl, saying hi at least once every 5 min. like some huge rafflesian gathering. xD (saw alison and xinqin!! aahhh i miss them.) joanna called to ask if she could use my testimony for yesterday night's prayer meeting. whee im glad. =)

ok we wenta take neoprints at heeren and it wasnt as screwed up as i'd expected. although it was the usual screaming again haha. met miffy and went lido to watch i not stupid too with all the other rg and cedarians and yada yada yada. we were clapping and cheering during the movie luh! not to mention crying. i couldnt help it!! so many tear-jerking scenes, plus the guys looking so good on screen-okay that was out of point. but seriously! go watch it.

after that, wenta meet sam to get a whole load of textbooks (see i told you i was hardworking) and cabbed to parkway to eat sakae with him and jon. taxi driver had a serious bias against 'zhong guo mei'. xDD i think he was blind as well. o.O

ahaha so that was my extremely loaded day. =) praise God im well!

updating...

ah by the time i 'update' this all the stuff will be 'outdate'-ed. so what's the point. >.< but i promised, so okay.

Birthday: i guess i could call it the most trying yet meaningful birthday ive ever had. :] im trying my best to not be so sensitive to all these things that're happening, but obviously in vain. telling myself it doesnt matter, but it still hurts, eventually. still trying to ignore them.

them: problems with some people, gossip, parents, some friends, school work, other stuff etc. but there's still this close and caring group of friends around me: uncondemning, always supporting, always patiently loving, and full of encouragement for me.

really thank God for preserving me till now, cos i dont think i would've survived if it wasnt for Him who pulled me through. shant wallow in self-pity anymore, so right now i'll offer You a sacrifice of thanksgiving.

Thank You that there are still people who really care for me and just accept me for who i am, and not judge me. Thank You for teaching me humility. Thank You for making so many breakthroughs in my friends' lives, and thank You for the rest of the changes that You're gonna make. Thank You for keeping me, keeping me close to You.

okay listen up people! i have a teeny weeny testimony to share. =D

[It was pouring quite badly when me, vivian, gillian and jaslyn got on bus 31 to go home on sunday after eating at parkway. vivian was getting real worried cos she dint bring an umbrella, and if she got home soaked she'd get hell from her mum. so throughout the whole bus ride she was anxiously fidgeting with her phone, wondering whether she should call her mum to meet her at the bus stop with an umbrella.

somewhere around bedok she started like praying desperately for the rain to stop before tanah merah, and then jaslyn alighted. two stops away from her house, and the rain wasnt relenting. in fact, it got even heavier, as i remember vivian and i staring at each other in despair when we heard the rain drops get significantly louder. she made one last attempt: God, pleeease make the rain stop before we reach my stop." and then, "aiya i think i'll just tell my mum la." and started smsing.

i told her, "no, you wait till you reach your stop, then if it's still raining, send her the message. " and i prayed too. then she said, "no la, we're already 1 or 2 stops away, how can it be possible right?" and although i didnt really feel like saying it, i felt that we shouldnt doubt our almighty God. so i started singing "all things are possible.." and i added, "with God all things are possible."

There was a 5 second pause as she remained unconvinced, not answering, perhaps not daring to challenge or agree. Then we looked, and lo and behold, the scene outside the bus hadnt the slightest hint of a single drop of water. the rain had stopped COMPLETELY. ]

aint our God sooo great? =) i cant describe that moment appropriately enough: such relief, such amazement, such awe and gratefulness. praise be to Him who's the Lord of the sunshine and the Lord of the rain, the Lord of the good times and the Lord of the pain.

Thank You for that little miracle You did Lord-it taught me so much about faith, and about never doubting You. now i understand when the bible says that we must have faith like that of the children, and to always always trust in Him. Thank You for putting a smile on my face, even in the midst of so many other things that im unhappy about and troubled over. I trust that You'll take care of them in your own time. i wont worry bout anything now, cos i know my God loves me. =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEE! *sings birthday song to self* hahaha and to yiusum too whose birthday was yesterday. xD

okay that's basically the main point today. cos i promise i promise i'll blog good once i have lots of time to. (when will that be. >.<)

things to blog about:
-BIRTHDAY!
-thanks and appreciation for my wunnerful friends, to be a lil more formal
-testimonaaayyyy! (from me and vivian) =D
-and whatever nonsense that comes to my head at that point in time, which you will be subject to torture to. whee.
-i guess that's all.

gnight God, gnight my ever-supportive family and friends, and gnight me the 15 year 'OLD' girl. (STOP commenting im old! im not!)

23 JANUARY

i had better start publicising my birthday soon or i wont get no presents at all. =(((

but yay! miffy and audrey were the first ones to gimme presents. lol. miffy bought a bikini top (o.O!!) and audrey bought sterling silver earrings. yumyum.

hahahahaha that sounded so childish. okay yeah it's publicised. job done. xD

DONT FORGET MY BIRTHDAY!! =D

complaints: dont read. ;D

just for the sake of updating, me zhengning and some sec 4s went over to nanyang and hci/jc to sell rock for good tickets on monday. we walked and walked and walked and walked till we were about to throw up. stupid bukit timah. stupid hu-normous school compound. and the taxi uncle cheated our money. -.-

but it was darn funny luh. we went in groups of 3s or 4s.. and they appointed the sec 4s in my group to be our 'mamasans'. made us sound like harlots or smth. -.- hahahahah. ah but the sales were quite bad. nevermind the hwa chong schools always have the worst ticket sales. lol.

tuesday! lemme tell you what i had. pe, then school all the way till 3.10pm. (you can tell how significant pe is.) dance at 330-530; cabbed down to tampines for ballet. i reached there at like 6 but it only started at 715 when it was supposed to start at 645. grr. so start late end late lorh. i reached home at 845. !! it was crazy, but crazily addictive. my back was glistening like some pool of sweat when i looked in the mirror hahaha. coolness. :D we should have torturing allegros and jumps everytime!! (hidden agenda: lose weight.)

my shoulders are aching
my back is aching
my waist is aching
my tummy is aching
my butt is aching
my thighs are aching
my calves are aching
my ankles are aching

yay aint my poem so nice to annotate. xD BLEH. massage services anyone??

How has studying geog affected you?

i became much more eloquent and confident in describing rocks, agricultural practices and how the government can improve singapore's suicidal birth rate. Thus i think this will help me greatly in getting any types of jobs-because i can choose from being a volcanist, a high-class farmer, or a PAP-er. In short, geog has most certainly increased my range of job choices, and has affected me positively.

What are your specific strengths in geog?

i would say that the strengths that i have aren't really considered 'strengths' (point), as they weren't good enough (explaination) to get me a GPA 4 last year (example). and on a side note, yeah i learnt to PEE. congrats mrs ng! ooh i loved my geog teacher last year. that was included in the side note.

What are the areas you need to improve on in 2006?

namely how to come up with more creative answers for useless questions like these. (which arent even related to the subject, actually.)

What are your geog goals for 2006? (4 SMART goals)

Stop spacing out.
Make the teacher like me a lot so she'll up my grades.
Achieve GPA 4.0.
React quickly when teacher catches me dozing off in class.

you only asked me to come up with 4. SMART has 5 letters. not very smart eh tsk.

YAY i've done my homework!!

gentle waves rolling
grey clouds blocking the sunset
romantic evening

chocolate smeared smiles
cover softly shadowed streets
romantic evening

aww what a sweet double haiku. =)

i take a look at my blog and i go:

boooooorrringggg.....

these few days have been so.. monotonous. okay not these few days. the last TWO days. friday was a helluva fun at pastamania with jon and sam. then CM cell group with like 14 others. quite a good turnout i must say. hahaha. had second thoughts bout going, then well. it turned out to be meaningful after all. yupp. =)

saturday was a usual chionging day for me. cheerleading at 8 (yay i managed to wake up) then hurried to ballet (where i got wrongly accused for not coming on one of the saturdays grr) and rushed to church for ypm. i liked the praise and worship.. gina's not bad. and for cell group we took-tada! communion! bread without yeast and snapple grape hahaha. yeah then we had free dinner downstairs. bummed around till i found jeshua to help me annotate Sylvia Plath's "Daddy".

he explained the war references and stuff to me.. Plath is super scary. she stuck her head in an oven and gased herself to death. ugh. the poem disturbed me a fair bit too. >.<

next. CM on sunday was cool stuff. got arrowed to be a last minute songleader-AGAIN-with amandia who had a really sexy voice that day. xD then during lesson we'd finished all our admin work so i did an impromptu lesson on salvation. koped it from this tract i read in like pri 1 haha! but it was good i think. everyone understood, praise God. and the kids loved hangman!! yayy. =)

after service we wenta eat at swenson's! really amazing cos there were like 9 of us: me zhangs clara jon sam daniel xinyi david jeshua-and no one had any objections. i guess we were all pretty bored of treats and fast food so. yeah. pangseh-ed evan and rachel. *hint hint* hahaha.

okay dinner beckons. so till next time, TA!

my internet modem is screwing up REAL bad. anymore and i'll burst all my blood vessels.

it's called linksys. sam calls it linkSISSY cos it's gay. super mega ultra gay. urrghh.

okay change subject! did service learning today. we were practically forced child labour!! did like so many jobs. even had to tackle hundreds of cockroach babies/shit/pee and huge spiders while we were moving stuff around and clearing cupboards. AAAHH.

called lots of sec schools today to arrange for flag day for Glory Centre (the service learning place). schools like ri, rj, dunman high, scgs, acsi, hwa chong... etc etc haha so fun! but so many schools have downright rude clerks. i shall give an example.

clerk: goodafternoon XXschoolherehowmayihelpyou... (yaks off a string of incoherent words)
me: (about to burst out laughing) hi good afternoon im calling from blah blah blah. may i please speak to the teacher in charge of cip?
clerk: *LOOONNG, drawn out sigh* she's leiwhieukg.
me: (huh?!) sorry?
clerk: (probably rolling her eyes) she's ealheiahfdie! extension number XXX.
me: okay thank you can you-
clerk: okaybyebye. *click*
me: *stares at phone*

then after that we had to CATALOGUE a whole stinking shelf of books. eeww.

I PROTEST AGAINST SLAVERY!!

More than i could hope or dream of
You have poured Your favour on me
One day in the house of God is
Better than a thousand days in the world

So blessed i cant contain it
So much i've gotta give it away
Your love has taught me to live now
You are-
More than enough for me!

I dont know how many people would actually 'listen' to what im saying now, but we'd better hurry and get saved/start saving people from tribulation on the last day cos Jesus is coming reeeeaaalll soon!! cant say it in a more urgent way.

yesterday aunty lynda showed the kids a video of the marriage supper of the bridegroom-the parable Jesus told. i FINALLY understood that parable. it's like every time i read a passage or a few chapters of the heaven book God somehow reinforces that learning and revelation with something else that happens. (in this case, the video) i was reading about how Jesus is giving us so many warnings and signs, that we must must get ready for the kingdom of God, but He cant wait forever for those who dont want to accept Him. He's coming in our lifetime that's what i know. Sooner than everyone expects.

I was so happy when i said the prayer of salvation with the k2s on sunday. i could feel God and all His angels rejoicing when the little kids accepted Jesus as their Lord and saviour into their hearts. He loves the little children! =)

It's not easy at all to get into heaven. if our hearts arent pure and holy enough we can never have a chance of entering God's promised land. He says that only about 20% of the so-called 'christians' in the world are actually pleasing Him and living their lives in total obedience to Him. so many churches are too concerned about outward appearances and being comfortable, than preparing and training people for going into the mission field to reach out to lost souls. if anyone enjoys this world or loves anything or anyone more than he or she loves Jesus, he/she will never see God's face.

so please; whoever is reading this, i beg you to ponder and just give a little more thought to what im saying than usual-i cant stress anymore how important this is.

on a worshiper's level, we must renew our attitudes when we come to church. are we really focusing our thoughts and our minds on the Lord during services when we sing and pray to Him? i admit that i get distracted by the people around me very easily. now i know that this displeases God. He wants our full commitment and all our attention to be focused on Him and Him alone; only then can we receive the numerous blessings that He has for us during worship.

right now im trying hard to please Him in everything i do, but i dont yet have the boldness to speak to unbelievers about Christ and what He did for us on the cross. i dont want to be embarrassed when i stand before His judgement seat in heaven on the last day! i keep praying for all of my unsaved relatives and friends.. if any of them comes to know Him-anyone at all-i'd be really happy for them.

im posting this cos there really isnt much time left, the tribulation is going to happen, it's not some far-off thing in the future which we'll not live to see, but it'll come in our lifetime, and God doesnt want anyone to miss the trumpet sound when He comes again to receive His obedient children.

woots im so bored im blogging everyday. -.-

today was alright.. we had pe where we played with balloons for volleyball module. like. GAY. and there were lotsa sec 1s walking past us so we just uh.. amused them =)

then chinese. our chinese teacher is sooo cute please!! he's like this short tiny 50-60 plus guy.. with super high pants and really cute big-framed specs. xD i had an impression of a hamster actually. and when he talks he makes cute gestures which make us really attentive and all cos he's so nice! hahahah rockers another good chinese teacher. dirty good teacher was funny at least. (sorry i dont have a very wide range of vocab so all i can think of is 'cute'.)

after assembly (we got the same HOY as last year yayy she's so nice) was RS. where we stoned in the hall listening to a talk and discussed what topic we were gonna do for the next 2 years. -.- well lets just say we came up with smth the government would be very pleased with. =P

the PRCs were getting on my nerves today during math. whenever mr teo asked a question they'd ALL answer as loudly as they could (reminded me of my k2 kids can) and at different times. so if the answer was smth like 5y they'd go:
"5y!" "5y!"
"5y!"
"5y!" "5y!"

you get my drift. there're EIGHT of them in my class aaarrgh. so throughout the lesson i was struggling to hear what mr teo was saying. they're so smart lorh!! poots.

lalala. shall talk bout dance. did the funny jungle thing at the end, and we all became hysterical HAHAHA. laoshi was asking what was so funny bout the step. xD i cant wait when the sec 1s come in for auditions whee..

after that me jac carmen marese were on 190 discussing possible names for ms kum's baby. she's planning to name her ava koh. like.. AVA koh. -.- then we thought of funny puns. like 'ivory koh' (i very cold) and 'fishern koh' (fish and co!) HAHAHAHA.. darn funny. and we were making a lotta noise on the bus i think. ooh j. toh was sitting beside me on another seat. HEE in your face nat! (no im not interested in him i just like teasing nat and seeing her face go red)

ok i shall end here. yawn.

boring!

im suffering from lack of hot teachers!! didn't get j. toh aaahhh >.< nata was making me feel reeeally miserable cos of that. -.- "okay english teacher, get a heart attack-NOW!! then j toh can teach us. " xD

grr. OBS next week! not really looking forward to it but i hope it'll be fun anyway. i've heard both good and bad stuff about it. poots.

and i need help for my commonwealth essay! im thinking of 'crossing the boundary' but im currently having a serious mindblock. been given some silly suggestions, like writing about refugees crossing borders and stuff into 'shittier places'. shall just have to chiong something out after OBS! whee. so gay.

bleah. chatting while blogging is not it.

(do i sound like myself?? teehee.)

three-eleven

whee im sitting beside natasha again!! HAHAHA so funny. we were being psychic before we drew lots for sitting arrangement.

"whoa later we sit together again." then tada! we really did. sat together for a whole term last year; drew comics, gossiped bout teachers, copied notes. and the other person on my right's this melissa girl from st nicks last year. so interesting. she doesnt know zhangs :(

grr i kinda forgot what i wanted to blog about. see luh chatting to so many people tsk. popularity's not very good sometimes. =P okay andrea's ego is blowing up wayy too big.

oh deah. i really cant remember. >.<

school

okay i shall be straight to the point, since im sure you've had enough of whining bout going back to school again at other blogs, and the standard excuse, im lazy! =D

we got this miss pang for our form teacher. a LOT like my sugar rush (ms wong!) but a lil better whew. hahaha. my class is a rojak class! <33

and the bio students got pr*m*. HAHAHA what did i tell you bout taking bio. tskk. =P

got newbie (it's spelt like that so she cant google her name) for geog.. aaaarrrrgghh. ok ok enough complaining i hope tan bee lian teaches us chinese she's so nice! and she's our new dance in-charge. yayyy. *jumps around*

had dance AND ballet for the 1st day of school. so gay.

im in 311! with jiayun, natasha, audrey, yunning, cheryl and kuoying. YAYY 204ers are gonna rock the class. haha. sounds like gep though, just that there're 16 classes in in our batch this year lol. (do we need our results slip tmrw?? i think i lost it >.<)

YAY i learnt how to skate and play guitar today. only 4 chords though, D, G, E and A. and im not sure i can remember some of them. haha sam's new guitar rapes! xDD new taonan lingo. hahaha im learning how to talk like them more and more. oops is that a bad thing.

GAH school is gonna start. eeew. the only good part is that i'll be in upper sec!
yayayy. ( i cant, i simply cannot imagine rebekah as a 15 year old. hahaha.)

i'll be missing all my church friends so so much. from hanging out everyday to seeing each other just 1 or 2 days a week. =(( blah.

counted down on both christmas and new year's eve with them in a conference over the phone.. and did so many things with them! im starting to miss you guys so so much my heart's literally aching. >.<

haha conference for new year's day was pretty gay. we were all calling jon's phone and he was taking cab with daniel and a few others so the moment we counted down and screamed "happy new year!!" he shut us off. hahaha.

zhangwei hosted the conference after that.. and then i slept till like 810 in the morning HAHA. and cabbed to church. whew thanks vivian darlh for waking me up with your unexpected call. xDD

went skating at east coast today. it's STRESSFUL! but after i got the hang of it it started getting fun haha.. we skated all the way to bedok jetty lorh mama pok. when i first started i was clinging on very tightly to my friends and they were complaining bout how slow i was. xD then when we were going back they let go of me and i could skate on my own! wheee..

i loved the downhill slopes, but i couldnt stand the humps. they're cool but scary. haha. twas a helluva fun man. thank goodness i dint trade it for cycling cos i almost wanted to give up halfway. >.< ok luh i got an abrasion on my right leg and a horrible bruise on my left shin but i still came back in 1 piece without protective gear thank God. =)

my previous post scared quite a lot of people i think. including qianhua hahaa. oh dear. but the warning must be told! so many people are living as if the end of the world will never come, or that there isnt a heaven or hell. but heaven and hell are, in fact, even more real than the earth itself. cos those are where we'll spend eternity. earth's just some passing temporal dwelling, to prepare us for heaven.

okay okay im updating.

i feel like hiring someone to blog for me hahaha. the pay? all the chocolates i got for christmas. =P which is a lot, i tell you. after christmas my fridge has become sort of a candy shop. hahaha ok enough. i shall now rationalise my not blogging for weeks.

1) i am lazy
2) i am mega lazy
3) i am mega mega lazy
4) i am mega mega mega lazy
5) guess.

tada! ah im feeling lazy again. should i continue blogging? doii.

fine i shall give my take on narnia. it's gooooood! a bit kiddy luh, but hey we all need a break from those brain-splitting plots sometimes dont we. and the symbolism was heavy heavy heavy. especially the part where aslan died and 'rose again', as someone "without treachery" dying for a traitor... so that the white witch would have "no claim on the son of Adam's blood". i liiiike. =D quite a clever way to spread the gospel, i must say.

i went to watch with zhangs, clara, jon lim and samuel the 2 gay pigs. we were bout 30 seconds late for the movie, so when they showed the family running from the war we were panicking bout a different thing. "wrong show wrong show!" "nonono correct! i know luh!"

HAHA. stupid movie-goers. then in the end we settled down and yayy. narnia.

and it was just after i read a book titled "heaven is so real". the show reminded me of how God's children will all come before Him and worship Him in heaven, when tribulation comes. that's really really soon. i guess it wont be more that 30 years before Jesus comes back to earth again; before the rapture happens.

okay see, the author of this book was taken up to heaven by Jesus 17 times, and to hell twice. and the Lord showed her a vision of the last day, when before the disasters happen, the people who were saved (i.e. pure-hearted people who know God) would soar up to the sky from wherever they are on earth and be dressed in white robes, to meet Jesus in the air. what a sight that would be! yupp and in that vision she saw her 10 month-old granddaughter, whom she described as 'pretty grown up' also flying up into the sky. that was in 1996.

'pretty grown up' could mean as a late adolescent, or 20-30 plus person. so that's how i guessed that the second coming would be sooner than everyone thinks. it is real, and it is going to happen. im scared for all my loved ones who arent saved. im scared for all those christians out there and in church who dont walk in God's way. the end of the world will be terrifying for them. hell will be 1000 times worse. oh deeeaar.

only pure-hearted and obedient people who know God will ever be able to enter into the kingdom of heaven. Jesus told the author of that book that heaven is, in every way, already prepared. He even showed her the mansion that she would be living in. so we'd better hurry and prepare ourselves!

i needa go now. roller blade! yayness.