SCREW diary-x. screw it hard.

"MASSIVE DRIVE FAILURE."

whatever luh. and they're asking for donations to 'recover' the journals and domains. like hello are you doing it on purpose.

lit research is raping me help. >.< ms huang changes her plans so abruptly.

shall i continue complaining?

nah cos i feel good today. =) *many things are in the air*

NOTE TO JOANNA: ive been trying to tag on your blog for goodness knows how many times and your tagboard just doesnt like me!!! ))=

aiya im lazy to blog. audrey help me change blogskin!! lol. gay laziness.

chionging children's lit rs proposal-due tonight.

researching on children's reading preferences and evaluating the quality of literary material which they are exposed to. where do we go from there then?? *pulls hair*

ms cheng doesnt let us combine groups. says 5 ppl is a lot. grr. but if the project's scope is big/deep then you need more people right! >.<

im doing geog timeline. yes i am. oh dear. xD

when all things that surround become shadows in the light of You-

today was an... exceptional day. after cm lots of people were feeling really sian and stuff, and dint wanna go for the teachers' meeting. most of us went in the end la, to listen to prophet rusty russell preach. (blogging for the sake of zhangs who dint go haha) so we had like praise and worship then he started preaching. it was kinda scary at first. preached for like 5 min then suddenly called amandia up: "this young lady here, what's your name? come up." then he just prayed for her and told her what God told him. i was like, wow.

next was gillian, and i could tell she was really touched. =) then joseph and caleb. then he asked rebekah to go up. after she went in front, it went smth like this:

rusty asked if anyone had a pain in his left thigh, and james said he did. so rusty told rebekah that she was gonna receive the gift of healing (!!!) and led her in praying for james. the pain which lasted for the whole day left completely. whoa. she was really shocked la. xD then rusty prayed for her and said stuff that made me gawk. "friends that want you to prove their friendship to them arent real friends. they're not worthy of you anyway, so God wants you to break away from them and surround yourself with real friends." it's like what she's been struggling with for sooo long, and after countless prayers she finally received this blessing. becky if you're reading this please know that God has reserved you for His purposes for a veryyy long time-He told me how special you were since last december. IM REALLY HAPPY FOR YOU GIRL!! *hugs*

after becky was yvonne i think, then joanne: "God says you're a princess." woot. xD

next he asked gabriel to go up, and gabriel-see, God's noticing and taking care of you so dont worry anymore! =) haha and then trent, and sam chao. rusty said samuel's gonna get the gift of knowledge. smth like prophesying. like he'll know things about people even though they dont tell him cos God's giving him 'inside info'. haha so cool la!! and sam dont say it's hard to believe it k it's such a wonderful gift. whee.

then he told all of us to stand up and start singing and worshipping while he prayed for each of us. and he said God just gave him olive oil to annoint us with on his hands-the oil just.. appeared supernaturally. (wonder after wonder) he came round to pray for me, and the moment his hands touched my head, i felt like my mind was being tossed and whirled around. like "WOOSH". i completely lost my leg strength and just fell on the floor after resisting for like 5 seconds. >.< okay sorry Lord. haha.

God had to reassure me a few times not to worry cos i was like shaking and trembling on the floor like i'd just been electrocuted. there were some personal stuff going on in my head while i was on the floor, so i cant really post it up here but i'll just say that His glory just made me totally surrender myself in His presence again.

i got up after that, and just sat there in the middle of the worship; too dazed and stunned to do anything but stare into space and lean on aunty lynda. then the shaking subsided gradually and i thanked God for what happened while i was on the floor. (now i know that the shaking and trembling is the Holy Spirit's manifestation, so this time i wasnt that scared.) i felt so released, so refreshed, and so.... new. it's like im this newborn baby experiencing the world for the very first time over. and i feel. so. HAPPY!!!

pardon me for my lack of vocab but that's the simplest and best way to describe it i guess. =D
im still feeling 'shaken up' haha. like i'd just taken a ride on the roller coaster.

well im done now, and glad i am that i decided to go. back to homework. xD TA!



we'll be blest because we came.

I was thinking of how my blog post would look like today. probably starting with a title like "WARNING: contains depress(explos)ives." but then my wonderful God right here (not only up there) made me change my mind. =)

the first 4-5 hours of today could be described as the worst school day i've ever had. lit for first block, where we had to chiong essay and essay plan, then ss where we argued with the (arguably) worst teacher in history. uh no pun intended. lol. just that she irritated the hell out of all of us with her gay english and "yes i see where you're coming from" and then goes totally off with a whole load of crap. i seriously dunno what im supposed to learn in ss. her teaching style completely confuses us and we get super turned off during her lessons.

and as if that wasnt enough, she released us 10 mins late for recess. -.- jiayun and i ate lunch during recess cos we were preparing to stay back during lunch break to chiong the rest of the work. then we had math, which fried our brains till they were 'crisp summer dung'. (partial fractions gets tiring after a while.)

the next block was chinese which, tada, dint get any better. our usually nice teacher turned down our pleas to not hand in expository essay today. so we had to squeeze out whatever we had left of our poor brains to finish the 500-800 word essay in class. i dint care i wrote like 400 words haha.

lunch! stayed back from 1225-1240 with a whole lot of people whining and moaning about the horrible school day. quote audrey: "double humans is killing me la." we write essay after essay after essay till it comes out through our nostrils and spills outta our ears. eek.

but i couldnt stand it anymore so yun and i went down and decided to splurge and treat ourselves-with ice cream!! =D i got really yummy purple ice cream with cute lil sweets here and there. mmmm.

thank God geog and chem were a little easier on us. although we've got homework from practically all 6 subjects today. chem was funny and fun HAHA i think my brain got so fried i ended up teasing ms goh. (quote natasha goh LS:"if i have a middle name, it will be ready get set. so my name will be natasha ready get set goh LoSer. xD) she was saying how Grace's terms like 'stuff' and 'thingy' were weird. then she went on to make us guess something:"....it is considered a want, not a need." when she said it was essential oils, we went,"huh i thought you said it was a want!" "your terms are weird!" hahahaha. good thing she dint catch it if not i wouldve been owned. xD

okay so back to my point on top. wow talk about essay writing skills. was going home on the bus today, and i saw this ADORABLE chio little girl with mixed blood sitting in front of me and her ang moh dad. their conversation made me laugh like a moron and totally brightened up my day. =))

then knowing how zhangs loved caucasions i messaged her about it. she called me back and exclaimed ANDREA I SAW A REALLY BIG RAINBOW!! AAAHHH! and launched into a live commentary of the beautiful work of God right before her. here's a piece of our msn convo, thoroughly condensed, of course. (zhangs,me)

i had physics test today and i did really badly. i made alot of careless mistakes and i didnt read the question properly!!!!! and it was like i was distressed for the rest of the school day. even dance cca that time.
then i came home and i was walking down the path to my house..
and saw the rainbow!
YESYESYES it was drizzling then
it's God's way of showing His love for you
and then i stared in awe and stood riveted to the ground
HAHA okay enough of the chim language
i was FLABBERGASTED
xD whoaaa show me the pics!
and and and yeah I TOOK ALO T
LOL
when i saw was like my goodness God's marvelous
is it really huge? i wish i was there! God really knows how to brighten our day =D
and by the time i finished admiring the rainbow i wanted to take pic the rainbow was fading. at that time i was at my house already lah
aaww louya pok you
when i called you it came out again. i talked to you for a while and i was hoping for it to come out again and i asked God PLEASE
whoaa!!!
yeah WHOA. seriously cool! HAHAHA. :]
after staring at the rainbow for such a long time, whenever i close my eyes i would always see a rainbow in the darkness. it's something like God will make a way when there seems to be no way. :]

i was really touched and blessed by this. i love my God and how He has these extraordinary ways of cheering us up. =) i love my zhangwei too! <333!

for the last time, i wanna do children's lit!!!

i dont care miffy and i are gonna drop outta the group hahaha. (james thought miffy's name was damn cool. =P)



vivian and i were chatting on msn for a lil while and the convo steered off track into our personal lives. i think the premise, is enough to warrant a mona lisa-ish sad smile as a conclusion. i miss chatting with vivian, she's one of the people who're really fun to talk to. like, they dont just listen and say politically correct stuff : yeah, but your parents are just concerned for your own good-cmon i know that. they go, "boy, i know how that feels. it sucks." and then they start ranting for you instead, expressing all your oh-so-self-righteous anger for you, like they know what's going on inside your head. (ooh that rhymed) it's like you're watching a live video of what you'll do when you're angry, and more often than not all those irrational emotions just creep meekly away, and leave you to think much more clearly.

or sometimes they distort your argument even further, and you get a really biased bias. now wont that be cool.

why the hell am i doing this i dunno. hahaha.

we had lit today and yellow teacher was drilling us on how come we dint annotate all 26 poems in the anthology. -.- and im damn happy cos she dint notice my gay fringe at all. broke my hairband (AGAIN) like last week and i managed to scrape past three assemblies without getting booked whew. plus yellow teacher was on her usual lookout today ("kuoying what is that falling all over your face?!") and my hair was worse than ky's but apparently she chose to say nothing. haha okay i shall not get complacent-might just earn myself a booking. thank God im not in bio with pr*m* hee.

randomness helps take your mind off really important things, namely a certain chinese article review.

I DONT WANNA DO RS PROPOSAL. :(

shit if my group members see this they'll probably oustracize me for life haha. but we're doing on RECYCLING like how sad can that get. bleh. wanted to do children's lit actually but another group's already working on it, plus they've already decided on the topic. grrarh i'd better get back to work now. *tears away from blogger*

God helllppp i need more lo-o-oove.