curses on blogger.

it just deleted an entire paragraph from the previous post and i had to type it out allll over again. it still doesnt sound right. i guess i missed out some things. GRR.

anyway. pictures. not a lot la. kinda shows the very uneventful life that im leading.

estee and my kids from allegro. CAC was da bomb. (:


zn looks freaking guy. sec three.

IMA VJ PUNK, YO.

my aunt's cooking pwns alll

im helping her to look chio. xD
AAAWWW. my unglamness doesnt spoil the utter romance. not one bit.

i told you it wouldnt be interesting! sad me.

i hope i can finally blog about something substantial today >< cos i've had a lot of time to think. think think think. (YES i do that you got a problem?) but i dont really know how to put it down in words.

yawnz. this has probably been the most fruitful and well-spent hols. in terms of studying, that is. but im thinking, if all im doing is catching up, i'll be struggling again as soon as term starts. i dont really care what subjects im gonna take in jc anymore. last time it was DIE DIE humans programme, DIE DIE lit. now im just okay with lit. im learning how to be 'okay' with everything. im not sure if i can even make the GPA for humans scholarship. correct that, my GPA is kinda beyond hope. im even thinking of taking a science course lols. ridiculousity.

sarx. hahaha. that's greek for flesh! yupp i love chris' bible study lessons. he told his fellow schoolar-schoolars that he was doing greek and everything with us, and they said, "wah your youth so intellectual ar?"
"no, just very hungry."
then to us he said , "they not connected to their youth only what." lawwl.

it's really interesting, the discussions we have and the way we really go through every single detail in the paragraph (we spent like 4 hrs in total on John 1:1-18, which is really power-packed.) and i agree, John is a genius. now i finally understand why Paul told women to keep silent in church. every part of the bible makes so much sense. and it's quite beyond doubt, once you study it thoroughly. it's not just a flimsy random collection of books that some old ah peks in the first few centuries put together. it has substance, it has reliability, and most important of all, it has power. and that makes you wonder, doesnt it, now where has all the power gone to? oooohh sensitive, sensitive.

yvonne's great quote: the husband is the head of the household, but the wife is the neck, *dramatic pause* and she can turn the head anyyywhere she wants.

HAHAHAHA. so true, isnt it. scheming, manipulative women. xD

great im totally ignoring the tons of work i still have to clear. we're not even done with the pathetic few buildings we tried to make for our geog model (sham's gonna slaughter us), im just gonna heck chem pt cos im confused beyond understanding (haha that sounds.... funny), and chinese is just gathering mould and dust at the very very back of my mind. groannns. i tried so hard to be focussed this entire month of hols. i did okay. and now im sorta rebelling against myself: asking why on earth im slogging so hard for, scolding myself for not having maximum fun during the hols, and thinking that maybe all that mugging was for nothing. im not gonna make that gpa grade anyway. despair is a horrible thing.

saw something in taiyong's blog that really moved me.
"Maintaining a close walk with God is hard. There's only one thing harder. Not having that walk at all."

maybe that walk with God was what kept me going all this while.

I miss camp. baaaaddly.
But then we've all got to move on dont we.

It was the best camp i've had in 2 years (or maybe 3) because I felt God's presence the most strongly. I think the collaboration and unity between YPM and CM really pleased God and He poured out double blessings on us. Another thing was that there were only 62 campers in all and about half of them were teenagers from 13-15. wooh so it was the least tiring camp for the teachers as well.

I miss the Cornerstone people ("when you praise God you dont stand in a corner and stone ar!" lols). They were such a blessing to us. The speaker Andrew Yeo connected with the kids so well, and i couldnt help but be thankful that he fasted and prayed for this camp. There was no altar call on the last night but we were all prayed for and it was powerful, oh so powerful, the presence of God. When i prayed for the kids i felt the words just flow out of my mouth. It wasnt even me praying anymore. Then i went to the back to just worship, and Andrew suddenly came around and prayed for me, and prophesied about something, but i dont think i want to share too much of it here. heh. He prayed for me to receive the Holy Spirit's anointing, then he ended with this: "if God can use a donkey to usher in his presence, he can use you."

God sure knows how i feel about my inadequacies. Even now i dont think im ready, but i guess i'll be ready when God is. Anyway, i experienced him entering my life then. And he isnt finished with me yet, i know. I feel such security now. I dont ever feel alone anymore cos i can feel him with me all the time. Arent you here right now, Lord? (: It's been a really long time since i've felt such continuous peace and joy. i get so excited when i realise i can feel that he's always there. not there. here. inside of me, you know, not outside and detached, but insiiiiide. :D

Anyway, i had a really wonderful group (all girls heh) and they're so spontaneous and enthu they really made my day. we had the unfortunate privilege of playing soccer with an all-boys group but they were really gracious over it. ahahaha. there were a few drama mama episodes between some campers and then some teachers as well but oh well it's over now and settled properly i hope.

okay it's getting late i should be doing work >< backkk to school and work and whatever nonsense.

Alright. im back from an entire week of refreshment and fun. :) i can confidently say that it must've been the best week in the entire year.

to start things off. miffy asked me out on friday to shop wheee so we met at parkway where i bought a puma tank (finally i can get my hands on some new clothes) then she dragged me to raffles city. we spent about half an hour navigating from suntec. it's confusing okay, i insist. okay back to the point. then i rushed off to meet zhangs to buy materials for clara's present at art friend. we seriously had NO IDEA what we were gonna do for her lols. then we came across this plain wooden drawer box thingy (heck my vocab) and we were like, bingo! haha no not really. just wishy-washy-ed a while more then grabbed some decorative stuff for it and rushed off to church for bible study. had some great fellowship. :)

saturday. woke up at an unearthly hour for someone who slept at 12 plus the night before (i need a lot of sleep okay) to take bus to zhangs' house to paint the box. we had great fun mixing the paint and all xD as usual she took her own sweet royal time to get ready to leave to meet amandia so in the end we missed the entire CAC dance meeting dohh but we met her and she informed us about it anyway. lols sorry mandia. THEN.

tadaa. (this must be put in a separate paragraph HAHA) amandia nearly broke her record of looking for her car/van (caravan? lol). for a full half hour we followed her up and down the PS carpark looking for her elusive vehicle, which we finally found at level 3. we started searching at level 4 how dumb is that. amandia!!! hahahahaha i tell you the car ride was probably the funniest i ever had. drove to joanne's house.

we were like stuck in the middle of two lanes for about a minute due to her superb driving skills, as you can see. sorry mandia i just have to post this it was like the highlight of the day xD

then we trooped to joanne's (huuuuuuge and cosy) house. her meh meh was so adorable and irresistible.

awww.

then we went for ypm, and powerpraise rehearsal where cara the superstar was late as usual ahaha.

that's all for now so, till next time! gotta sleep.