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Birthday: i guess i could call it the most trying yet meaningful birthday ive ever had. :] im trying my best to not be so sensitive to all these things that're happening, but obviously in vain. telling myself it doesnt matter, but it still hurts, eventually. still trying to ignore them.
them: problems with some people, gossip, parents, some friends, school work, other stuff etc. but there's still this close and caring group of friends around me: uncondemning, always supporting, always patiently loving, and full of encouragement for me.
really thank God for preserving me till now, cos i dont think i would've survived if it wasnt for Him who pulled me through. shant wallow in self-pity anymore, so right now i'll offer You a sacrifice of thanksgiving.
Thank You that there are still people who really care for me and just accept me for who i am, and not judge me. Thank You for teaching me humility. Thank You for making so many breakthroughs in my friends' lives, and thank You for the rest of the changes that You're gonna make. Thank You for keeping me, keeping me close to You.
okay listen up people! i have a teeny weeny testimony to share. =D
[It was pouring quite badly when me, vivian, gillian and jaslyn got on bus 31 to go home on sunday after eating at parkway. vivian was getting real worried cos she dint bring an umbrella, and if she got home soaked she'd get hell from her mum. so throughout the whole bus ride she was anxiously fidgeting with her phone, wondering whether she should call her mum to meet her at the bus stop with an umbrella.
somewhere around bedok she started like praying desperately for the rain to stop before tanah merah, and then jaslyn alighted. two stops away from her house, and the rain wasnt relenting. in fact, it got even heavier, as i remember vivian and i staring at each other in despair when we heard the rain drops get significantly louder. she made one last attempt: God, pleeease make the rain stop before we reach my stop." and then, "aiya i think i'll just tell my mum la." and started smsing.
i told her, "no, you wait till you reach your stop, then if it's still raining, send her the message. " and i prayed too. then she said, "no la, we're already 1 or 2 stops away, how can it be possible right?" and although i didnt really feel like saying it, i felt that we shouldnt doubt our almighty God. so i started singing "all things are possible.." and i added, "with God all things are possible."
There was a 5 second pause as she remained unconvinced, not answering, perhaps not daring to challenge or agree. Then we looked, and lo and behold, the scene outside the bus hadnt the slightest hint of a single drop of water. the rain had stopped COMPLETELY. ]
aint our God sooo great? =) i cant describe that moment appropriately enough: such relief, such amazement, such awe and gratefulness. praise be to Him who's the Lord of the sunshine and the Lord of the rain, the Lord of the good times and the Lord of the pain.
Thank You for that little miracle You did Lord-it taught me so much about faith, and about never doubting You. now i understand when the bible says that we must have faith like that of the children, and to always always trust in Him. Thank You for putting a smile on my face, even in the midst of so many other things that im unhappy about and troubled over. I trust that You'll take care of them in your own time. i wont worry bout anything now, cos i know my God loves me. =)
i took a break;
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